Aaron Lucas, Mommy Stuff

Some Helpful Tips When You Know Someone Going Through Infant Loss

We are 10 months and 2 days since we experienced the single worst thing that’s ever happened to us. Never in a million years did I ever think we would be in the group of parents that have gone through this.  No one ever really does, I guess.  But especially when you have a near perfect pregnancy, you REALLY don’t expect it. I wanted to write a little bit of what helped (and frankly what didn’t) in the first few hours, days, and weeks of the loss of our son, Aaron. (These are MY own experiences, everyone is different.  So […]

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Aaron Lucas, General, Mommy Stuff

It’s the most wonderful time of the year…sort of…

This is truly my favorite time of the year.  As soon I feel that first break in the weather (which isn’t much of a break, but we Floridians can sense it). As soon as “Fall” hits here in Florida, it just makes me instantly happy. Thanksgiving…my sister’s family, our family, and whatever friends want to gather at my in-laws’ house and we enough a fairly relaxed late morning-early evening of visiting and EATING!!!! Then it begins, we can finally start decorating for Christmas!!! (I would start in September if you ask me). And even though I’ve been listening to Christmas […]

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Aaron Lucas, General, Mommy Stuff

A few more firsts this week

Well…this concludes another week of firsts for me. Sunday was my first in-home Tupperware party.  And not only that, but I had two, one at 11am and one at 2pm.  I survived, whew! This was also my first week back to work.  I worked Monday-Friday during the hours that Ayden was in school. My first encounter with a customer (that as I walked up that first day I thought how I wasn’t ready to see a couple customers).  And he was one of those that I wasn’t ready to see.  But he came looking for me.  I was so glad […]

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Aaron Lucas, General, Health/Fitness Stuff

Some days are normal, some days mess with my head.

You always hear things like “he/she has good days and bad days” when referring to how someone is coping after a tragedy or something.  And you believe them, doesn’t always sound cliche, so you usually don’t think too much of it. But it’s true. Some days I feel pretty much normal.  I might have a sad moment or tear up, maybe have a good cry. And then there are a few days, like my yesterday, that total eff with my head. I can’t seem to collect my thoughts, I feel anxious, I can’t make decisions, I don’t know what I […]

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Aaron Lucas, Crafty Stuff, General

So, we’ve never been landscapers.  We’ve sorta tried a couple of times in the just-over-ten-years that we’ve lived here to having something nice looking out front of our house.  But it’s just never been a priority.  The only thing we’ve been able to successfully grow is pineapple plants and aloe. Aloe grows like a weed btw… Toward the end of the this last pregnancy, Berkley told me that while he was off work and home with the baby and me, he was going to try to do some landscaping out front of the house.  At the time, I rolled my […]

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Aaron Lucas, General

My dealings with paranoia…

I have worked for our local grocery chain, Publix, since I was 17 years old.  Last May would have been my 17 year anniversary, but I left for 22 months when Ayden was born.  I have been back for 4 years now. One of the nice things is working for Publix is kinda like Cheers…”where everybody knows your name”. Also…everyone knows your business. Which can be good or bad depending on who you are and what your business is. One of the hard things I dealt with after losing Aaron was that I didn’t want to go into any Publix […]

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Aaron Lucas, General

Yesterday, I went to visit the hospital nurses…

Yesterday was a HUGE day for me. I went to visit the hospital nurses that took care of us during our 24 hour stay at the hospital when we had Aaron. I knew from the moment we left the hospital that I would be back to visit these ladies. The amazing-beyond-words nurses that went through this with us. The strong-beyond-belief nurses that held us during this crazy time. I was able to arrange a visit with the night nurse that was there for the start of our stay and the two day nurses that were there during the hard labor, […]

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Aaron Lucas, General

It’s been one month…

(Written on 10.02.2017) It’s been one month…. …Since I held you in my arms for the first time. …Since I felt that feeling of joy that is delivering a baby. …Since I felt like a superhero again. …Since our confusion that you were a boy and not the girl we had been told we were expecting. …Since my heart stopped beating a little. …Since I held you for the last time. Since I kissed you for the last time. I really don’t know where to start this. I have had all these ideas floating around in my head the past […]

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